On motivation and accomplishment.

Image taken from Daily Positive Quotes.

Last night was horrible. My back hurt and my right knee was playing up to the point my entire leg was numb. Painkillers did nothing to relieve the pain.

I ended up only having four hours of sleep and woke up two hours before my appointment with my therapist. The temptation to go back to sleep was overwhelming but somehow, I managed to find the motivation to get out of bed.

Even though I had managed to get out of bed, I still didn't know if I was feeling up to going to my appointment. I needed to wash my hair anyway, though, so I had a shower and decided that I may as well go. I was worried about time as it was less than an hour before my appointment and I like making sure I have enough time to get there. Thankfully, my dad kindly offered to drive me there so I took up the offer.

I made it to my appointment with time to spare so I checked in, sat down and waited. My appointment hadn't even started yet and I already felt a sense of pride at being able to get out of bed, nevermind getting dressed and leaving the house.

My appointment went extremely well. Last week, my therapist drew a jigsaw puzzle about all the issues I raised during our first session which we'll be adding to during our time together if necessary.

Today, we discussed the negative thoughts I had on Friday, Saturday and yesterday as a result of not being busy. We ended up discussing so many subjects in relation to them I can't remember everything that was said.

My therapist is lovely. I'm really glad I got her.

Afterwards, I decided to reward myself for going to my appointment despite feeling horrible by renting Dark Shadows and Les Misérables from the library as I needed to go there to return Frankenweenie anyway. I love going there. It's never busy so it's always relaxing. I also took out Tales from the Perilous Realm by J.R.R Tolkien.

It's important to reward yourself for accomplishing something, even if it's something small such as making yourself a cup of tea or reading a book. We often forget that the small things do matter. Even if you only manage to get out of bed despite being really tired, you've accomplished something.

Today's been one huge success. I'm so proud of everything I've accomplished today.